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Sunday, December 28, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 8:07 AM

"its allright, cause there is beauty in a breakdown"

i am intrigued by this movie:


discovered it after youtubing the videos si mughnii suggested(ia dengan hindrafsnya inda mau abis2 =_____=)and well, l liked the mv, and people gave good ratings for the movie too

isn't he the CUTEST kid you have ever seen
by far?


i searched imogen heap-let go and stumbled upon this mv.and now i really want to know where to get/download/smuggle/duplicate/retrieve the full movie with english subtitles as i think it is in french.and i do not want no chinese subs as it does not help.just because we are all asians doesn't mean that i speak cantonese.no offence.

Julien Jeanvier : [talking about Igor the gym coach] And how big are his biceps again?

Sophie Kowalski : Bigger than your brain

Julien Jeanvier : And you like this guy?

Sophie Kowalski : As a second choice [starts walking towards Igor]

Julien Jeanvier : [shouting] Second choice... who's your first? Sophie...

=) kiut.

oh, this is the featured(=p) tin box which gives power

over the other to do all the dares given

aside from that, i just finished the book belle had lent to me (^-----^)//

buduh ceritanya ah, urang tuha inda sadar diri.ahahhahha

but but,i applaud the writer in keeping me glued to every page, every chapter of the book until the very end where the old sayin your mum have had always put a mantra about is actually true: money and power kills your life and feeds the devil.

ok, my mum didnt actually say that, or else it could've scared the shit out of me and i would've grown crippled.

so yeah belle, if ada lagi buku-buku novella yang inda membarigali, ahem, i am here=)

oh and also, i have an enormous,mucus infested ulcer right smack dab at the right of my lower lip!i am not exaggerating the situation, honest, the ulcer is as big as the circumference of a wooden pencil on the eraser side.yes, its that big!
and its calling out to you!like its saying "ahhahahha, nothing can kill me, i am indestructable!try your best, sucker!(yes, i am aware of the double exclamation mark, the ulcer is heightened to excitement)"

i mean,i've tried the serogel(the real medication) and sira(salt) but both dispell nothing over the agonising pain that they cause.its much worse than period cramps you know!banar bah, mengapa kamu inda percaya anekan?

i remember how my mum used to say that if u have bitten ur lip/inner cheek(terkatap, as i've known it) someone out there is busily chatting away your flaws.well, if that were to be true, then that person out there has serious, intense opinions about me as tom(the ulcer) festers further than the horizon spreads at late afternoons.well, if it was true, then it would be an easy indication and you could just fone up your hundred of closest friends to fish out the unlucky one...or ones.

But alas, it is nothing but, extravagant membual.(not my mum but the superstition thing)

i think i've said enough for this morning=p

oh!bought new bag and a t-shirt...and i feel guilty.why am i feeling this?=_______=have you experienced that before?antah, everytime i purchase sumthin i remember those trafficked children who are forced to weave the exact garment i now own or clasping the buckles on the bag.....i better stop thinkin bout this or else eventually i'd never change my knickers ever again

cute yes?

p.s i intend no infringments of image shemamems....yes.

Saturday, December 27, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 9:41 PM

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us...it's worst in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the loss of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you whats hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,

I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here


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mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 8:32 AM

buduh basar nyamuk ah!do you readers know that i would almost always react to a pesky mosquito nearby(p.s: reacting= squishing those things into pulp) antah, maybe deep down i am just as temperamental as the rest of you lot =p

oh, hiiiiiiiiii =)
the 25th was sooooooo fun!uberrrrrr(haha!) fun!
its to bad c nad(good luck with ur nini),mas, fizah, mizah inda dapat datang but they now have other commitments=p
nah, u guys are excusable
ah yatah, got to meet iylia's other three darlings.......the cats i meant.
and her cooking is the nyaman(someone's ready to walk down the aisle)

the secret santa session was memorable by its own but the event that came a lot later was priceless.bah, sebuting- sebuting ku becerita.
giving something for rahmah was easy as she wanted something green and cute,so i got her something green(a giraffe phone strap) and something cute(a denim diary with a long mesage in it) -i know, i could've done simpler, but why should i?

and what zymah gave to me was thoughtful =) in a non conventional way, maybe she new that i needed a seluar santai to go to pantai (lameness intended) it fitted also!hahahahha, a miracle!usually i needed my butt to be there with the pants before purchasing it, and she sewn circluar distinct doodles of our faces.....you'll understand once i post them....when i eventually have the eagerness later...how i do not make any sense does not concern you so thank you but no.

after that...we had a dance session.azmina went all boozy and insisted her booze a.k.a jasmine tea to zymah =__________=

but what touched me was the heart to heart speech thing.i choked.i, nadiah binte yaani, choked.
on tears.we all went hormonal but what you guys said that night, i appreciate =) i love you guys and no manly dingdong (or dingdongs)can be better than all of you combined.

so my lovelies,
just so you know, i love you
just so you know,when you need me, i may not always be there, but i will never push you aside
just so you know, you guys mean the world to me, so i won't stop you from finding yours
just so you know, the flaws you have are the reason i stayed
just so you know, time will go on, people will go on, you and i will go on, maybe separately or together, it doesn't matter

just remember the role i played in your life once upon a time ago =)

ahhhhh, emusi banar.but true.life is an uncertainty so lets spend the rest of our time here at the most.

nah, i gone all soft and shitty.


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Tuesday, December 23, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 10:03 AM

mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 9:55 AM

i miss seeing you the first thing in the morning
i miss being unattached to you
i miss the cutest things you do
i miss seeing you late at night before i go to the bathroom
i miss talking to you as if you would understand
i miss having you

but two have gone and i don't intend to bury you too

so say goodnight and go =)

mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 8:40 AM

hello hello =)

haaaah, i still feel exhausted and have been sleeping more than eight hours everyday cuz...my back hurts.yes i got physical.

well, lets just say that the party was awesoooooooome (i sound like a sad person whom had previously lived under a rock...i still do)
well, for the first part, them mas and the +1, mizah, fizah n jam saw me tiptoeing in thru the backdoor with my heart-cascaded comforter =______= bagus eh, a way to make an entrance

after that a bit makan-makan, yada yada yada...
the slide thingy was the funnest part until *ahem* drama drama starring our very own dramaqueen =p

monobrow monster ahead

i played the slide bouncer thing in my jeans so everything was barat and retarded lookin, and the fact that my mascara was smearing decendingly (adakah tu?)didn't help either.
one thing followed the other, had a heavy midnight makan, DIY henna tatoo, sendiri-sendiri britney beat, bla bla bla, n then slept at 3am, bangun the next day at 8..or was it 10 pagi ?then sambung main slide bangas-bangas with belle, nanazzzz and naimah

and now aku itam lagam


well, to sum up the whole event


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Friday, December 19, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 5:43 AM


Somehow, i feel so excited at the moment,
you know... that rush of adrenaline you get once in a while for no good reason?
well, firstly i am glad that norbila and fizah is back from their holidays ^--^

and i am lookin foward to the begila karang =____= hope i wont jinx it!

and my vocab is diminishing faster than the growth of zits!As can be seen from my meakly attempt to impress those who do actualy read this(or it is just me who thinks that there are those interested) that i am failing to do so =_________=
i don't even make sense at the moment now do i?then again, when do i ever?
ahh well, maybe some other time i would at least put an effort in reading a page or two of something in paragrahical, anglo-based literature....the cereal box.

Yatah.......aside from the random shit i just said, lets get the party started!<3

i intend no infringement shemamems of image...yes.


Thursday, December 18, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 9:40 PM

why don't you exist?



Wednesday, December 17, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 9:44 PM

Tuesday, December 16, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 2:49 AM

can you see me?
c jam mcm a korean advert =p

ahaha, i only took the pictures where i am involved(amal and jam also) =p sorry, but to see the rest just go to the anakbrunei.com and scarysoul -quest.blogspot.com i think(sorry if i got the site incorrect =___=)but yeah, pretty good pictures there
and i was lookin for some 'other' persons face too but left dissapointed (well, what do you expect nadiah, there were 800 persons there and you expect each and everyone to be squeezed in all the shots?)

as you can see, i am vain enough to sense a camera within 1 km radius XD tapi mukaku ah!
rasa kan ku cuci and bsyampu dulu baru ambil gambar...but alas, haha, the real world is the truest form and in my truest form, i suck at lookin good. XD


Monday, December 15, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 6:24 AM

I watched twilight tadi
(^----^) it was so fun watchin the muvie with umi n belle(and the kid dsiringku of whom belle n umi found cute in a sense he was politely complying to us being girls and such)
hahaha, well, for me it wasn't that frusturating as i have not read the book and i intend not to in due time unless i find that solitude is such a bore and would prefer anything better to do than just stare blankly at the dinding.
i am such a geek, i know but heh, it just seemed so cool =__________=
Before watchin the movie, the three of us fooled around at excapade and danced to some funky xmas songs.HAHHA
and umi membazir inda makan the tempura thing, antah ya ah.good thing she didn't get the duck XD
but overall, i liked the outing tadi =)
didn't take any snapshots tho, too preoccupied i guess
oh!and i like jacob<3
my lil sister's friends are flaky enough to cance their day out so she watched it on dvd, inda tarang but hahha, you can always count on the funny, direct translation XD
for example:
twilight= senja(=----=)
are you feelin well?=awak rasa perigi?
my dad paid me twenty bucks to give you this message= ayah saya bayar saya dua puluh ekor rusa jantan untuk memberi awak mesej ini
(it's a malay thing so yeah)

yayasan,aku n amal duduk-duduk arah fountain mcm ndun=p

oh oh, forgot, the walkahunt yesterday!!!!!
was funnnnnnn =)
and I SAW CUTIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
man i fluffed up the whole day and the night before at the seminar thing when i saw him.soooooooo cute!
n then i realized i had a type,haha, but i liked my type =p
oh, back to the event, it was the most confusing thing i've ever joined in my life!hahahha, but i had a blast with amal, my partner for the day, and jam.love you guys!
ada c cahya jua kadang-kadang and c dollah i think, if i got his name correct
and some other familiar faces.
but ultimately, i wanna see cutie again and mabe by that time, i'd ask him out.HAHAHHAHAHAHHA
that is, when i feel brave enough to do so X)

i am a bronze buddha now....skinwise.

kami bangas


Thursday, December 11, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 5:02 AM


saya belum mandi dari pagi


well, dari yesterday

=__________=" no wonder i am still single.HAHAHHAHHA

well well, my modified walk-a-hunt shirt have not yet been retrieved cuz.....aku balum mandi n malasku kan ambil soooo we will see it tomorrow.


and and haaaaaah, our family photo just showed up in today's borneo bulletin!keh....sure am glad that my face is unclear there XD

and and my personal statement is on its way to completion!!!weheeeeeee!!40o characters moreeee n then its all proofreading and rewriting some stuff...sekelumit.hopefully

i feel it's perfect enough(mostly due to lethargicness...hahhahha) but you know, everybody is a critic XD as it should be.

nyeh, i wanna eat jawbreakers and gummy bears at the moment......temptations temptations

songs i am feelin at the moment:

epik high-love love love

epik high-one

epik high-one minute,one second


stereophonics-handbags and gladrags

i am glad to be me =) rambang.

no honey, i have not seen a woman prettier than you(muamu ah)

palui fastffoodsong ane,hahhahahahha


Wednesday, December 10, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 12:23 AM

=) nothing better to watch then these two at a go

Tuesday, December 9, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 10:23 PM

i figured out this shit!

well not exactly, i don't talk javascript

anyways...tadi pagi tutup karan!

i was thinkin to myself the night before of tutup karan jua....weird coincidence or just clever intuition?HHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

well, due to boredoom.........i drew flowers on a mug...initially planned on the walls but heh, i am a goody goody sooooo:

once there was one

then it became three!

it actually looks good......now for the walls....XD

oh oh, look who is contestant number 346 for the walk a hunt!(not as effective as it sounded in my head)


Amal and i joined at the last minute,hahaha, so baju kami labuh!like UNATTRACTIVE kind of labuh cause size S and M abis(damit-damit jua banar urang brunei ani) *look who is talkin*OH i got to meet amal's parents and lil nieces and nephews, there are 9 adoloscents in total!Gahd, it it was me to face those cuties when they are not cute everyday....i'd be bald and ugly.And have jumped off some cliff.So Amal.I SALUTE YOU!=p

And i am still tired from the family day last monday.And my attachment thing confusing to me.I will be at school on saturday! (OO) Get things done, snip snip snip!

Lets just sit duck and hope for the best, shall we? XD

HELP HELP!YOU HAVE TERRORIZED MY HEART!=___________= i'd better stop this before any serious matter arise

i intend no infringement shemamems and no conscious hate feelings.......yes.


Sunday, December 7, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 10:05 AM

i have no partner for the walk-a-hunt
i txted Rahmah but who am i to expect her to reply messages on time?or within 24 hours.....
i need some miracle
and a cash machine
i need....a big spender..HAHAHAHHAHA
seriously in need of luck! XD
on the verge to ask Safi here......
someone?anyone?well not quite anyone

time goes by so slowly

and i say is ur dad a crafter?cuz ur a fine piece of art! XD


Saturday, December 6, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 9:31 AM

will you buy me a new one?
the one which has endless thick tuft of leaves?

the one which have infinite life span and bear fruit so i can plant more moneytrees?

(no infringement of image shemamems intended)


mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 8:53 AM

to be me:

friend: oh my god, we suck!
me: we suck better!...i mean we're better at sucking!
everyone: =________________________= *bursted into laughter*
sure we sucked better.

Well this post is long enough.so yeah...what the name, tight ass?HAHAHHAHAHHAH!
No intended hate feelings here(wah, i sound so smart) all in the name of love.


mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 8:20 AM

everyone is backkk!!!=)))

well mostly everyone, felt so good just to chat with them, you know the warm feeling inside...no, not that one...... thats it....XD

well umi was here n she didn't leave any message =_____=

haha, i am just so glad that she is back

iylia was online for a while too, i've missed her a lot man, semenjak ia jadi amah ane nada lagi usul2 jelamanya wah XD

oh and congratulations belle!!!(if u ever succumb to be reading this at god knows when)

u will have the chance to "feel" it, "be" it, "believe" it...hahahha, i sound like a cheap advert

researched more today and they never fail to just leave me with a tint of hopelessness and sheer depression, like really, the requirements =_______= makes you feel like you are better off sewing socks(not that there is anything wrong with it)

it always leave me hungry...don't really know why

and i know that food is a poor substitute for comfort but heh, blame me for being a girl.

i miss rahmah still.

so i say what's cookin good lookin?HAHAHAHA!


Friday, December 5, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 2:21 AM

what i did today:

bangun ahir
curled my hair
continued curling my hair
kupas udang dgn my mum
tutuk bawang
makan kuih
cuci piring
liat tv
pakai seluar(previously bbaju n tuala saja, yes i know, larap)
makan lunch
checked facebook
jalan gdg
ucap-ucap urang
on laptop
pasang epik high
now i am here =p
outta credit, no job, livin the good life.HAHA

random fact: my lil sister remembered something from munakahat wherby you shouldn't similarize ur mother/father with your spouse.ahhhh....

i miss seeing cutie's face.shit.

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Wednesday, December 3, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 8:56 AM

i miss you guys =(( a lot
where have you gone to?
why haven't u replied my messages?
brunei isn't the same without you guys...well, my brunei that is.
apakan, is there some kinda "be away from nadiah" week where semua just disappear?

rahmah kau kemana?
nad kau kemana?
nadz...well i do chat with you tapi kau behapa?
umi balik wah..
mina kau behapa?
iylia napa kau menghilang?
qam, kau behapa?
zym ure there but u seem so far away
belle.....we will see each other tomorrow
i really miss you guys a lot

feeling like the abandoned girlfriend here.
p/s: no intended infringement of image here
p/p/s: no, its not the time of the month
p/p/p/s:i am still figuring this thing out

Tuesday, December 2, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 11:16 PM

virtuoso had been fun =)
n thanks for today guys!

mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 7:06 AM

hello.hello.hello =p

haaaa, i am suppose to be finishing my personal statement but then i was left uninspired hence writing something totally meaningless*thumbs up*:)
.....(tryin to think but distracted by naimah)...

oh yes, i vowed to myself to never, NEVER blog but hah, yet i am here so...i have weak will power XD i have surrendered to temptations *insert sexy jazzy music here*

oh by the way,
saya belum mandi,
since yesterday......i am a proud woman!!yes, i am a woman, not some random town whore.haahhahahahahaha *insert cheesy western music here*
as you can see, i am left uninspired still
maybe tomorrow saya mandi.

gambar above: yes you can see what is goin on arah my desktop XD

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Monday, December 1, 2008
mama,can i be a sunflower when i grow up♥ 8:17 PM

i am still trying to figure out how to operate this chatterbox thing..aaahhhhh, god help me!! =________='


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